Less than two weeks away. I cannot believe it. I am very excited and very nervous as well. I feel so stressed out. I am so confused. I have so many admirers. lol.
I think that jordan is amazing and I truly wish he didnt have a girlfriend. I really enjoy spending time with him and we have so much fun together. And what this this white boy do? He tells me he loves me. I dont believe that for anything. I want to believe but its difficult when he also sayys how much he loves his gf and he does or doesnt want to leave her and etc.etc. I can make up my mind what to do but just stay friends. i'm crazy about him but he doesnt seem too sure about what he wants. I know I don't love him because I can't be his number 2, i can't be anyone's number two. I enjoy doing things with him including kissing him. lol.
I finally talked to this guy i work with at the Gap. He has stared at me for 3 months. And claims he has this HUGE crush on me, but has not said anything. I am shocked he has a voice, he has said nothing to me. I feel bad because we were doing more talking than working and i think i may have got him in trouble but at least i got him to smile. He has a nice smile and big teeth. i'd like to spend time with him before i leave but you know we'll see. Napoleon seems nice but you know im not really going to get to him and i'm not sure how old he is either.
I havent talked to Omar in a week or so and I've just been mad avoiding. I feel really uncomfortable because it's just hard for me.
I'm stressed because i want so much and have so little time. I'm afraid that things won't be the same when I get back. NA that these relationships and friendships that have just blossomed within the past fe months or so won't last.)
I've been rethinking the Peace Corps but I refuse to give up on my dream because of uncertainty. If it's meant to happen it will happen. If these relationships are supposed to work we will make them work. I ca only do my part. I can't worry about what someone else is going to do and if they'll forget about me. If they do, thats their bad luck.
I'm an amazing person and if you don't take the time to notice than I can not offer you anything.
I cannot believe it. Its hard to believe I will be on my way to Africa. Its hard to be excited when I'm starting to say farewells to friends because two years is such a long time. I am sad that I am leaving. And I got to meet such wonderful people in the past few months.
Oh my goodneww oh my goodness. I can't belive its less than a month away. Wow, and i'm a busyy bee. My last day of work is the 19th. i'm going to be working many many holiday hours prior to black friday. And then the next day I'm off to Virginia to visit family for thanksgiving and then the last week i have to myself for packing and last minute things.
i think I'm going to have a get together dinner that last week before I go with some friends I think. If they are around.
I'm so excited, I have met a few people who are also going while on facebook so i'm excited to meet them and hopefully work with them. I'm excited!
I'm sure some people already know this but in case you don't know I am joining the peace Corps and I'm leaving in December. The peace Corps whats that?
Well it's a non-profit orgainzation that offers the oppurtunity to those willing to take their skills and expertise abroad and travel to far off places outside of the United States. They range from different assignmens from teaching to agroforestry. Just check it out for yourself on their website.
Wait, where is Kim going? I will be departing soon for Guinea. Its a very small country in West Africa that speaks french and probably a number of other languages.
What are you going to be doing in Guinea? Good question! I will serving as a Health education volunteer. My job that i have accepted will be to educate and create awareness about the AIDS epidemic and help in the prevention. I will be working closely with a health center and working on many different projects within this area.
OK? When are you leaving and for how long? I'm leaving December 1st for my orientation, which will be be in Phillidelphia. I'll be ther for three or four days. After that it's off to Guinea and I'll be residing there for approximately two years.
Is this a joke? Are you being sarcastic again as always? No, this is not a joke. I am seriously leaving. I already put my two weeks in at my job so I can spend my last weeks with my family and of course packing. I am seriously leaving!!!
So can i still email you? Another good question. Apparently electricity is not a viable resource where I'm going however I should have some access to internet from time to time. So it would be safe for you to email me. My repsonses will be delayed.
Can I call you? I want to hear your voice? Absolutely not. I am not paying for any calls from Africa to the States are you out of your mind. Thats mad expensive sounding! lol.
Can i write and send you care packages because you are so far away? ABSOLUTELY!!! i Would love letters and packages. Please please please write if you can or whenever you can. remember I will be gone for two years. I will get homesick. I will write back and send things. i may need someone to upload my memorystick once in a while.
What's your new address? My name
Corps de la Paix Americain (it's french for peace corps)
B.P. 1927
Conakry, Guinea
West Africa
What's your email?
Kimmie609@aol.com
Can I see you before you leave? If you would like but you need to contact me ASAP! Cause I'm still working and I'm going to Virginia the week of thanksgiving. So hurry up!
Are you having a going away party? Um possibly not a party but i was thinking of having a dinner and then maybe going out afterwards.
Am you going to visit NP before you leave? I'm working on it! It may have to be a thursday before i leave. Because I don't know yet!
Are you serious? Yes I'm serious! I'm not being sarcastic, I'm not joking around. I've been in the application process with the Peace Corps since January.
What can I do? You can send me your updated contact information! This is so important I don't want to come back two years later and feel disconnected.
So when will you be back? Ok. So I said approximately two years I will be there. A rough estimate of my arrival back home would be March 2010. But that is a ROUGH ESTIMATE!
Kim, I hate writing letters. Can I contact yoyu on myspace, facebook, or myyearbook? Absolutely. from what I gather. I may have limited access to the internet so i can check those things out from time to time and it'd be great to hear from everyone back at home.
Kim, we haven't talked in a while? Why didn't you say anything beforehand?
Because I didn't know anything beforehand. Like I said I've been in the application process for a long while and there was a point where I wasn't sure whether I would get medically cleared to leave. I recently recieved an invite about a week or so ago.
Kim, I have more questions but I'm afraid to ask them right now? Then message me, email me, or call me. I still have my phone until Nov 30. You can text me if you don't like the sound of my voice. lol. Whateva works!
I'll keep posting as i find more answers to those questions and when I have more information for you. Thanks so much for the support.
Take care,
Kimberly
ABout a month away and I'm very excited yet very nervous. I still have so much i want/need to do. I can't believe I won't be back home till 2010. How crazy?
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I am officially excited and still can hardly believe whats really happening. I am so happy and yet at the same time jealous of myself. But my worse fear is being unable to complete the assignment. Im hyping it up and myself up and I don't want to set mysyelf up for failure. But I really want to just leave on good terms with everyyone and bring lots of pictures with me whne i leave and i just hope someone writes to me so i own't feel so lonely. I wonder if i'll have enough time to write people and connect with the people from Guinea. Sometimes I wonder if I'll have an kind of impact at all? As long as i keep a open heart and a friendly attitude i think i can accomplish anything while I'm there. I just hope and pray that i catch on to the languages. I will work hard on my language study while I'm there, even if i need to ask someone to tutor me. i will work hard on my language skills so i can connect with the people better and be able to do my job better. I hope i become fluent while i'm there. that would be a huge accomplishment for me. thatd make me extremely happy. YAY!
Anyway I want to have a going away party and maybe a party in new paltz and also like a going away dinner maybe kinda sort of. idk. part of me doesn't want to make a big deal about it because i'm afraid of failure. BUt i think i should because it's not everyday people do this and i think i'm ready. i just have to think positively and make the most of it while i'm there.
I think i had a good birthday it was very good. I didnt really want anything for my birthday. I went out to Woodbury Commons with my mom and I got some black Tims that I wanted and then we went to New Paltz and went apple picking which was pretty fun. We got half a busshel of apples. There were a lot of apples. And then after that Omar took me out to dinner at chilis and the staff sang happy birthday which was a little embarassing but i got ice cream and cake out of it. lol. It was cute though. Then we watched a movie the heartbreak kid and it was not so good. Im mad that I sat through it but it wasn't so bad. I didn't think omar liked me like that cause he tried to hold my hand and he seemed a little more than friendly towards me and I got nervous cause i think he's so sweet and I don't want to lead him on. But I feel like i already did. And I really don't want to hurt his feelings.
All in all I did have a good birthday, I had fun with people I care about and I got cake and that's not too shabby. And I also got my invitation on my birthday and yoyu know what, that is what I really wanted for my birthday.
I am so mixed right now from extremly happy to nervously anxious. I know I am going to accept my invitation but i'd just like to know a little about this country before I say yes to this. And also I want to tell my mom before I accept this invitation but I haven't had the heart to tell her. But I have to.
I'm nervous to tell my whole family. I don't think they'll understand. And I don't want to sit here for the rest of the time before I leave defending my decisions. but it'd be wrong of me not to say anything about it since I am leaving for two years.
How am I going to pack for two years? How am I going to tell my one or two friends? I'm going to tell them like it is. I counted down I have about six weeks before departure. I have six more weeks to say my goodbyes and farewells and to pack and move out of my house. Because when I come back I don't expect to live at home with my mom anymore. And if for the slight chance I am, it won't be for that long.
My heart is heavy with so many emotions right now. But mostly nervousness has been overpowering me. I've only told three people. My brothers and Jessica.
My other situation is that I've been kinda sort of dating two guys and i have to tell them as well but I don't want to. But I DO HAVE TO. . .eventually.
When I see it on paper 2010 is such a long ways away. But regardless of the date it's goign to be 27 months at anytime of the year. I'm just not feeling that I won't be home for Christmas this year. I won't be home for 3 Christmas's. I think that is going to make me homesick missing holidays like christmas, thanksgiving, new years and fourth of july. And I'm going to miss dating. I was really hoping that'd I meet someone during training that was also a volunteer. I'm hoping that there are people there that I can connect with. So that I don't feel as lonely as I am.
But right now I already am pretty lonely. I just try to spend time with people when i can on the weekends. It seems to be working to help keep my sanity.
I think i'm ready but I don't think anyone could ever be ready for something like this. This is bigger than me. And I want to put my all into it and make sure that I can do the 27 month commitment to serve. I think I can. . . I know I can do this.
Guinea. it finally arrived and on my birthday. I'm hysterically very happy. I can't wait to find out more about this country and its culture. I have 10 days to accept this invitation so I'm going to give myself a week to think about everything prior to accepting it. The leave date is for December 1-3 which will be orientation probably held in washington. And then 12/08- 2/24 will be pre-service training and then from there March 08- December 2010. I am very excited, it seems like such a long time because i won't be coming back home till 2010 but i think it's also becuase the leave date is in december.
I'm nervous I don't know who to tell first or even how to tell them. There's so much I have to do between now and DEcember. I won't be here for Christmas. But I already intended on not being home for christmas because i thought i was leaving in September. I can't possibly explain all the feelings I am feeling right now. I'm excited and this departure date is right around the corner, it's freakin a month and a half away. All i have left is november, but at least I get to spend thanksgiving at home with my family.
I can't believe this is really happening in less than 2 months I'm going to be in Africa. I'm going to be speaking french, i'm going to be HOT!, I'm going to be lonely, but I'm going to get to do so many wonderful things and meet new people and learn so much. i feel like the possibilities are endless in this situation. I have so much to learn. I have so much to learn.
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